How long am I here?
There is no time but now, and now lasts forever.
There must be hundreds in this place, though I never see anyone.
I know from the screams that come through the walls.
I see only the guards when they come for me.
Sometimes I am hooded and led to the gymnasium because my cell is too small for more than three or four of them at once.
In the center of the gymnasium is a cold steel table.
Shafts from the skylight bathe it with a silvery glow, like something from a dream.
A man on this table will confess everything he ever did, name everyone he ever knew.
A man will lie, bargain, beg.
Giving information is something only beginners do.
The screaming is the only important thing, the thing they most want and need.
I believe it feeds them.
S-21 was a former high school turned into the Tuol Sleng prison by the Khmer Rouge.
The Cambodians called it “konlaenh choul min dael chenh” (the place where people go in but never come out).
Nearly 20,000 people are known to have entered Tuol Sleng.
Only six are known to have survived.